Yesterday night was, hopefully, the last time I ever took the old dose of Quetiapine, 300 mg. So from today onward I will be taking 250 mg of Quetiapine at night and 125 mg of Sertraline in the morning. If you have a look at my dose reduction plan, you will see that I originally planned to stay in this place for a while. However, as I have had no withdrawal symptoms or other adverse reactions to the dose reduction so far, I feel I should move on to the next dose reduction sooner. Thus, I shall begin lowering the Sertraline dose further next week, in the same way I have already done it once. This modification is to be followed by another dose reduction of the Quetiapine. My next aim is to reach a plateau phase with 200 mg of Quetiapine and 100 mg of Sertraline. This corresponds to a 30% reduction of the original dosages, which I find to be quite a significant change. Once I get there, I still plan to remain there for at least a few months.
The question now is whether I have noticed any changes so far. As for negative ones, luckily not! On the positive side, I do feel slightly more alert in the sense that I make faster decisions, seem to have an improved concentration and feel more open towards learning new things. A lot of this, admittedly, has to do with my recent changes in lifestyle and the accompanying shifts in priorities. Logically, I have some restructuring and decluttering to do. Nonetheless, I feel that I am mentally and emotionally better disposed to pull through with these reconfigurations. Lowering the dose of my medications may be contributing to that.
Physically, there have been slight improvements as well, although these most likely have to be attributed to factors other than medication withdrawal. My weight has been going down very gradually, which is probably mostly a consequence of my doing daily yoga routines and eating a low-carb diet complemented with veggie shakes. I have a very sweet tooth, but lately I have managed to steer clear of too much self-indulgence in this area. My partner and I have agreed we can be naughty – in culinary terms – every once in a while on special occasions, but certainly not on a daily or even weekly basis. Our naughtiness in other areas seems to be improving. Our relationship is thriving, yet it is impossible for me to say whether lower medication doses have anything to do with that. I suppose, and hope, that we are simply doing things right.
Lately, my sleep is less plagued by nightmares. I used to have them every night, and they were intense enough to have me wake up screaming every so often. Since I have moved in with my man, this has not happened again, although most of my dreams are still weird and unsettling. They very evidently deal with traumatic experiences as well as the fears and conflicts derived from those. As a result, my dreams are quite repetitive in topic, which makes me assume I have a considerable quantity of psychological knots to untie if I want to get rid of them. Several sources on psychiatric drug withdrawal explain that as you lower doses, emotions and thoughts may resurface that had been lingering under the surface of your drug induced stability. To me, that makes perfect sense, as the drugs do seem to suspend you from hammering away desperately at your worst conflicts. So, as a consequence of medication withdrawal, I expect some serious processing and coping challenges to lie before me. At this point in time, such challenges have not occurred to an extent that would make me consider seeing a psychotherapist. My partner is a great source of support, encouragement, comprehension and love. The list of his wonderful characteristics could go on and on. My close friends are caring and sincere. In other words, I have a support network that wants for nothing. Thanks so much for that!
All in all, I am happy about how everything is going. My initial fear of lowering medication doses has receded. I am still very careful and slightly apprehensive about the process, but so far I have felt motivated to think that as long as I proceed in a sensible way, I should be able to minimize risks. I am glad I have started this process.